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It
was
early
in
the
morning
(the
sun
wasn't
up
yet)
when
I
was
admitted
and
the
halls
were
very
dark
and
the
air
smelled
stale.
Soon
I
was
greeted
by
a
nurse
and
they
asked
me
various
questions
about
my
hobbies,
daily
routine,
habits
and
health
related
questions.
They
were
nice
however
when
they
found
out
I
was
admitted
involuntarily,
their
tone
of
voice
changed
to
a
somber
attitude.
I
was
given
a
brief
tour
of
the
facility
and
they
took
my
cellphone,
purse,
shoes
and
clothes,
giving
me
the
only
option
of
wearing
their
hospital
gown.
They
showed
me
my
room
and
it
was
very
cold
to
stand
in.
There
were
two
beds
and
for
the
moment,
I
was
rooming
alone.
Beds
were
hard
for
me
and
the
blanket
was
loosely
made.
I
was
able
to
breathe
under
the
blanket
and
still
feel
the
chilling
air
the
AC
unit
was
producing.
I
laid
there
with
discomfort
and
anxiety,
I
wasn't
able
to
sleep.
It
didn't
help
much
that
someone
peeked
in
every
thirty
minutes
to
see
if
I
was
sleeping.
I
refused
any
medication
because
I
honestly
don't
want
anything
foreign
to
me,
going
in
my
body.
I
watched
the
room
grow
in
light
as
the
sun
came
up.
A
nurse
notified
me
that
breakfast
will
be
starting
soon
and
I
should
join
the
others
to
go
downstairs.
I
didn't
have
anything
else
to
do
so
I
went
outside
my
room
and
saw
other
people,
mostly
young
and
a
few
were
older.
We
weren't
able
to
leave
on
our
own
to
the
cafeteria,
a
nurse
had
to
escort
us
down
and
back
up.
It
was
recommended
to
join
seminars
and
talk
as
a
group
with
someone
evaluating
our
participation.
The
more
you
go,
the
faster
it
is
to
leave.
Group
chats
did
not
really
do
anything
for
me
even
though
I
actively
spoke.
The
only
thing
that
made
my
mood
lighter
was
seeing
other
people
going
through
depression
as
well.
I
didn't
feel
as
alone.
When
the
group
sessions
end,
you
were
given
time
to
do
your
own
things
(with
limits).
Phones
had
to
be
asked
for
if
you
wanted
to
use
it,
you
had
to
plug
it
into
the
wall
where
it
was
available.
There
was
a
TV
room
with
books
and
puzzles.
You
could
also
just
lay
there
in
your
room
until
lunch
or
another
seminar
comes
around.
But
like
I
said
before,
being
active
is
better
for
you
and
them.
Occasionally
you
get
pulled
aside
to
be
evaluated
by
interns/students/nurses
and
eventually
the
psychiatric
doctor.
The
doctor
had
a
stern
face,
blank
expression
and
had
nice
clothes
($$$).
They
were
objective
when
it
came
to
questions
and
responding
to
my
answers.
It's
their
job
to
study
me
but
it
would've
been
nicer
if
they
faked
a
smile.
I
got
a
little
sad
when
they
had
to
step
out
the
room
to
answer
a
phone
call
while
I
was
speaking.
Soon
after,
a
counselor
speaks
to
me
about
what
I
will
do
after
I
leave.
They
said
the
doctor
recommended
day
hospitalization
(8
hours
a
day,
for
4
days
a
week).
That
recommendation
made
me
tear
up
and
ask
if
that
was
a
request
or
command.
The
counselor
was
probably
the
nicest
employee
I
met
there.
As
they
saw
how
much
stress
I
was
showing
and
understood
that
I
didn't
have
money
for
that.
They
spoke
to
the
doctor,
and
two
therapy
sessions
was
approved
instead
of
being
in
a
hospital
for
32+
hours.
I
was
so
relieved
to
hear
that
and
it
was
the
most
good
news
I've
heard
since
I
was
admitted.
Soon
I
got
out
and
I
certainly
felt
more
appreciative
of
my
life
(being
out
of
there).
Although
this
happened
last
year,
I
still
get
haunted
by
this
memory.
I
was
depressed
then,
and
I'm
still
depressed
now.
The
way
things
were
handled,
could
be
much
better
if
the
people
and
the
system
cared.
I
don't
feel
like
they
did
anything
but
give
me
a
bill
for
sleeping
on
their
bed
and
eating
their
food.
There
are
some
things
you
cannot
fix
with
medication
and
recommended
(forced)
interaction.
Depression
is
different
for
everyone
and
it's
not
simply
black
and
white.
There
is
gray
and
all
the
shades
in
between.
I
hope
someday
there
are
better
methods
of
healing
than
what
I
experienced.
I
just
really
wanted
to
let
someone
know
of
what
it's
like
in
there
and
if
you
need
help,
please
please
please
try
to
speak
to
your
loved
ones.Take
your
time
to
get
better,
it's
only
your
life
after
all.
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